It certainly does feel lonely. The cycle can be broken one decision at a time so we can ultimately feel supported. Happy to hear you found it helpful. Thanks for reading 🙏🏻
This is honestly one of the most beautiful articles I’ve ever read on spirituality.
It captures something I’ve slowly learned myself — after going through a phase of spirituality that actually pulled me away from life, from my body, from the ordinary moments that make existence real.
For a long time I thought I needed to “go somewhere else,” reach other dimensions, stay in elevated states…
but the moment I came back to listening to my body — sensations, emotions, inner states — everything shifted.
And I realized something simple but life-changing:
real spirituality is earthly.
It’s not an escape upward, but a meeting point — where the higher parts of us join the lower, physical, human parts.
There is no spirituality without the body.
There is no awakening if we are not willing to feel.
(Small spoiler: I’m actually creating a video-course about this exact process — returning to the body as the gateway back to ourselves.)
Thank you, Nikki, for sharing your story with such honesty.
It’s rare, needed, and deeply healing in the current spiritual landscape.
Understanding that emotions aren't WRONG has been so hard for my in my own journey. They are ways of your body communicating and you need to give them grace...
Syd, you're definitely not alone. We've been programmed to keep our truth to ourselves. There have been instances when it wasn't safe. You're courageous to give yourself permission to feel it all. Thanks for reading.
I got CPTSD from childhood and before I was even a teenager I was really into spirituality. Although it saved me in many ways (and still does)- I too was ignoring the pain in my body and my dysregulated nervous system. I mean, I went there and did what I could at the time but was not 100% admitting to myself how bad my body was hurting and how much I was denying my needs- while still people pleasing like crazy.
I got to so many initiation points where there was no bypassing allowed at all. When brutal honesty was the most relieving thing for my nervous system. I truly realized what a useful emotion anger is as well. I think staying embodied will be a lifelong journey for me, but one that I can never unsee.
And of course I notice right away if another person is bypassing or trying to spiritualize a situation and it drives me nuts!
Thank you for sharing you’re journey. You’re brave for staying with it and acknowledging yourself and your pain. Most people aren’t willing to do that but for us who are we become empowered through our experiences, even when it feels like shit. It’s funny once you see something you can’t help but recognize it in others. Becoming aware and conscious does make it feel like we are hyper focused on things that others are oblivious too. My daughter said being awake feels like a curse sometimes and I totally get that.
I see it all the time in healing spaces. Eventually, people will discover that something deeper needs to be realized.
“Every time you bypass, a tiny part of you goes quiet.” This abandonment of self can feel so lonely. I appreciated your article
It certainly does feel lonely. The cycle can be broken one decision at a time so we can ultimately feel supported. Happy to hear you found it helpful. Thanks for reading 🙏🏻
This is honestly one of the most beautiful articles I’ve ever read on spirituality.
It captures something I’ve slowly learned myself — after going through a phase of spirituality that actually pulled me away from life, from my body, from the ordinary moments that make existence real.
For a long time I thought I needed to “go somewhere else,” reach other dimensions, stay in elevated states…
but the moment I came back to listening to my body — sensations, emotions, inner states — everything shifted.
And I realized something simple but life-changing:
real spirituality is earthly.
It’s not an escape upward, but a meeting point — where the higher parts of us join the lower, physical, human parts.
There is no spirituality without the body.
There is no awakening if we are not willing to feel.
(Small spoiler: I’m actually creating a video-course about this exact process — returning to the body as the gateway back to ourselves.)
Thank you, Nikki, for sharing your story with such honesty.
It’s rare, needed, and deeply healing in the current spiritual landscape.
You're welcome friend! I'm holding the vision for your video course to reach millions 👁️
Understanding that emotions aren't WRONG has been so hard for my in my own journey. They are ways of your body communicating and you need to give them grace...
Syd, you're definitely not alone. We've been programmed to keep our truth to ourselves. There have been instances when it wasn't safe. You're courageous to give yourself permission to feel it all. Thanks for reading.
Hello, so happy to connect with you 🤍 I just subscribed to your content, and I hope you feel like subscribing to mine too 💌 xx
Thanks love 🙏🏻💗 I’m following your journey.
Thank you, appreciated 🤍 let’s stay in touch. xx
I love this SO much! You and I are a lot alike too, I’m so happy I found you today. Such a needed essay, thank you for sharing 💜🙏🏼💜
Awe, I am so happy that you could see yourself in my honest article about healing. What resonated the most for you?
I got CPTSD from childhood and before I was even a teenager I was really into spirituality. Although it saved me in many ways (and still does)- I too was ignoring the pain in my body and my dysregulated nervous system. I mean, I went there and did what I could at the time but was not 100% admitting to myself how bad my body was hurting and how much I was denying my needs- while still people pleasing like crazy.
I got to so many initiation points where there was no bypassing allowed at all. When brutal honesty was the most relieving thing for my nervous system. I truly realized what a useful emotion anger is as well. I think staying embodied will be a lifelong journey for me, but one that I can never unsee.
And of course I notice right away if another person is bypassing or trying to spiritualize a situation and it drives me nuts!
Thank you for sharing you’re journey. You’re brave for staying with it and acknowledging yourself and your pain. Most people aren’t willing to do that but for us who are we become empowered through our experiences, even when it feels like shit. It’s funny once you see something you can’t help but recognize it in others. Becoming aware and conscious does make it feel like we are hyper focused on things that others are oblivious too. My daughter said being awake feels like a curse sometimes and I totally get that.
Thank you for your response, I really appreciate it:) Your daughter sounds awesome, she gets it!
Oh boy! This is a BIG one Nikki! Yes, there is no bypassing.
Most definitely!